Thursday, May 6

Jimmy had a good day today, he was happy to go to school and enjoyed his acupuncture afterwards. One thing that troubles me is that he says he can not visualize himself without "the wobble", he only sees himself falling down. Is it just too abstract a concept, or is he seeing his future? I'm scared to death of all that we do not know, and I'm on the verge of panic about tomorrow's lumbar puncture. I know he is in the best hands, and I'm very thankful that his doctor wrote the order in such a way that the sedation and hemo/onc clinic was approved by our insurance. Lucky, lucky. I attended an event tonight where I won so many raffle drawings that the other entrants were conjoined in their stink eye. That's a good sign, right? I did not accept the only prize I really wanted; that's good karma, right? I'll offer anything, I'll even give back my yoga mat and exercise videos and false eyelashes and I spy wii game and whatever else is in that swag bag, it's all absurdly unimportant. Just make him okay, okay?

We check in at 10, I'll get to stay with him until he's asleep,we should be home well before dinner time. If you're inclined to pray or hope or wish or dream, don't hold back!!!